Never mend my broken heart. I want it the way it is: shattered and very much of a worry. This way, I can make myself believe that trusting it won’t help me find real sanity. For whenever I love, I get downed and hopeless. Depression kills me.
I hardly ate anything this day. Well, except for a can of Pringles while driving back to Imus. I am just too busy thinking whether i should hold back or give in. I’m afraid of having the different thought compared to his, again.
It feels SO nice to log in here again. Our computer’s been SO wrecked for almost a month now. It’s still a pain in the ass so i’m here in one of the computer shops in the neighborhood. I know. Don’t worry, my brother’s here with me. Anyways, a lot of crazy things happened these past few weeks. Yeah. They almost got me lunatic. I had 3 short-time stalkers in a span of 28days. I slept only 2hours each night for 3weeks. I dunno why I do. But I’ll be working on my beauty sleep this night. At least I’ll try to. Then, I scarred my left knee last saturday. I jumped to the pool then that’s it. Blood flooded. I didn’t cry though. Then uh, I became a stalker myself for this guy. He’s the youngest son of my mom’s friend. I’ve been to their house (with ze family) for quite several times. He also goes to my mom’s just to lurk around. And ‘coincidentally’ I am often there. It’s not the way of ’stalking’ that you think. I just you know, look and whenever he does. And smile whenever he smiles, too. Heeeheee. I’m just sharing.. ^__^ So anyway, um back to the main topic. We had our field trip last tuesday. It was fun biking and watching the dance presentation of the Philippine High School for the Arts students. They’re really great! I pray to be like them. Then last night, me,my sibs,and my mom had a dinner date in Seaside blahblah. Yeah. I love seafoods and Japanese foods SO much! (Try Teriyaki Boy in MOA.) And today, HS students had long discussions with Pastor. ‘Twas refreshing, though. And right now, I’m trying to bear the noise from the other computers. Come on! They’re all just games. Uh..wanna go home. Ciao!
