WILL YOU ABIDE WITH ME?
You’ve been not around for days and I’m missing you a lot. I don’t know the reasons why you’re avoiding me. Probably it’s our state that continually confuses both of us. I know dear. It’s complicated. I’m sorry but I only have one method that could relieve my broken heart. It’s being friends with you.
It was much more painful than i expected. I had to make friendships with you because I want you to abide with me. I’m sorry. But it’s really the only thing that could make you stay.
I’m still praying for that day. The day when I’ll be able to give you the notebook where I’ve put the lines that I liked from the novel that I’m reading now. What if the right time is the time when God will take me home in the heavens? Will you come with me? Will you be so willing to leave EVERYTHING behind?
This is another public outburst of my emotions. I hope you people will understand. Actually, wala naman talaga kayong karapatan para mag-react sa mga sinasabi ko ngayon. It’s because what I’ve written here is not for you. It’s for this person who’s been ignoring me all this time. He might not even be reading this.
Now, don’t take such pity on me. It’s not what I need. He knows exactly I’ve been longing for all this time.
My Lord has ordered me to write here about these things. ‘Cause I really didn’t mean to!! Sigh. I’m now choking in tears… So lost in wonder.
P.S
Abide- 1 To continue, last, or endure. 2 To continue in place;stay;dwell;reside. 3 To look for; wait for.
Now that you know the meaning of the word, can I ask you once more?
Will you abide with me?
i’ll wait forever for your answer.
