finding love in the pages of an ignored notebook
I got so bored with Chemistry that I began to write poems for my classmates’ memoir. This is what I do when the hour is such a bummer. I was chatting with Honey as I flip through the pages of my Chem notebook. Then I noticed how the back pages of that notebook were filled with my writings! I can’t remember when I did those. A topic occupied 5 back-to-back pages, and it’s weird ’cause what I wrote is this: When death comes to me, who are the ones that I’ll be thankful for?
I am morbid pala when I get bored.haha! but anyway, I was more shocked with the names that I wrote there. I won’t be mentioning any. I hate gossips.
’nuff for that.
I browsed more. And I found poems that I wrote in the past.
I’ve lost my words
the way my thought floats
hatred boiled me with love
the truth became so hard to grab.
yea, I walk with the moon and stars
but the solitude seemed so harsh
i hate it, when they sway me around
when it’s not in your heart I am to bound.
3:59pm 13Nov2005
i’m locked in, good enough to break
with this timy glow i live for his sake
i’m getting insane with the sun for a night
i got deaf when you sang me goodnight.
ilife got me on my knees
evil had a week to be a beast
it’s just you who i blame
you left me, and i just became so lame…
4:01pm 13Nov2005
i guess i was so much desperate that day. perhaps, it’s because of him. now don’t ask me who that is.
i loved only once.
so there’s no such question for me as ‘who among them?’
you know who you are…please stop ignoring me like this. i’m so sorry for what happened to us in the past…
hadn’t this occured to your mind, that after such a long time we still have the same feelings that we felt 2 years ago?
