The Heartstrings of an Angel

how do you say goodbye to someone you can’t even face? i don’t think an abrupt absence could set as an alternative. that would be hurtful on my part. i dunno.

you made me believe on something i was playing with all those times. you fooled yourself. those ‘hugs’ and ‘mwuahhs’ were said to make you feel filled in some ways. it’s because you looked so pale, so needy of someone to love you. i symphatized. with my whole heart i cuddled all the mistakes you’ve made before. let’s put it this way: i bent my way down to you. but why in this world you curled me more? when you felt down, i was beside, right? i even prayed for that stupid relationship! ohh. we’re both dreaming that we could fix what’s impossibly worth putting back. every time i hear your whispers, i shiver. not in the way that could make YOU smile. but, i shiver, as if my disgusted by your words. we did things we drooled over. we played ‘gotcha’ like kids. i ran after you. you also did after me. but maybe what we played is the same way as what we feel. we’ll never have a balance. we will never never never have ‘the spark’. perhaps because you never really knew what love is. i don’t know why distinguishing it stresses you much. let me just reap your heartstrings out. you’re vain enough,anyway.

i don’t need you. i loath over your sarcasm. buti na lang andyan si Tatay para pasayahin ako. sabi pa nga Nya di ko kailangan yung company mo. true enough. i’d rather isolate myself than to be with you and have another destructive "love".     Wake    up!   pull down your pride before you embarass yourself big time. not all the girls like you. it’s so irony, why do you see yourself as if you’re God? we won’t praise you. I won’t lay my life on YOU. and i will never even adore you. so        STOP        living like hell        STOP         making yourself believe that you’re good enough for ME         STOP      being yourself.

silly me. i pitied you. *sigh*

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