what to expect when you are expecting
the least that i could do is run after him. it seems odd knowing im a girl. but you know, in love, even the smartest people do stupid things. and im here, being a jerk.i tried to keep him close by continually saying ‘im still here’ in case he needs me. i held proverbs 15:1 quoting " a soft answer turneth away wrath, but grevious words stir up anger." i did exactly what the verse says. when im getting furious and when im hurt by the way he acts, i just breathe and try to keep myself calm. i expect him to feel nothing odd. i expect him to understand what i did in the past. and i expect him to be the same guy i knew before. but you know, after lightyears of running, i realized how im running on an unending road.he stretched the road for me to get lost. he hates me. i know he still does.what do you want me to do? say ’sorry’ in different languages? you know, you just turned me down. my praying every 5am everyday got wasted. whenever im depressed and in need of someone to talk to, you’re not around.im afraid to tell you how i need you simply because you’re making me feel how im out your life now.thanks for that. im not making this for him to catch and search for me. i just want to tell him that he’s missing a great piece of his life. i want to show you what you got before.but, you won’t know what you got until it’s gone.
