The Heartstrings of an Angel

the least that i could do is run after him. it seems odd knowing im a girl. but you know, in love, even the smartest people do stupid things. and im here, being a jerk.i tried to keep him close by continually saying ‘im still here’ in case he needs me. i held proverbs 15:1 quoting " a soft answer turneth away wrath, but grevious words stir up anger." i did exactly what the verse says. when im getting furious and when im hurt by the way he acts, i just breathe and try to keep myself calm. i expect him to feel nothing odd. i expect him to understand what i did in the past. and i expect him to be the same guy i knew before. but you know, after lightyears of running, i realized how im running on an unending road.he stretched the road for me to get lost. he hates me. i know he still does.what do you want me to do? say ’sorry’ in different languages? you know, you just turned me down. my praying every 5am everyday got wasted. whenever im depressed and in need of someone to talk to, you’re not around.im afraid to tell you how i need you simply because you’re making me feel how im out your life now.thanks for that. im not making this for him to catch and search for me. i just want to tell him that he’s missing a great piece of his life. i want to show you what you got before.but, you won’t know what you got until it’s gone.

By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime..

An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200 movable
parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and leftovers, have a
lap that can hold four children at one time, have a kiss that can cure
anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart-and she will do everything
with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that’s just on the standard model?
That’s too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."

But I won’t," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed, "but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason andnegotiate."

The angel then noticed something, reaching out, touched the woman’s cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That’s not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"that’s a tear!"

"What’s the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her
pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and her
pride."

The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up to injustice.

They don’t take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member,
Yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

**a woman’s love surely makes a man whole. i want to love completely.but patience has to run in my veins.i tried to make him whole.i cried as though my tears are an exchange for his happiness.through trials, ive learned, that i must glue first unfinished and shattered pieces of me before i can make him truly satisfied. but my puzzle would take time.i can’t be the woman you’ll be looking forward each day of your life for a thousand years. i want to take quiet steps into molding myself of becoming your ideal one. i want to be prepared when we meet again. i want to have the epiphany striking as we look in each others’ eyes. a realization that meant we’re made for each other. i would lean to you so close that could make you stop breathing for seconds. then, i would carefully whisper,"i want to love you like a woman would."

————————————————————————joan

if i knew it would be the last time that i’d see you fall asleep, i would tuck you in more tightly and pray to the Lord, your soul to keep.

if i knew it would be the last time that i see you walk out the door, i would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.

if i knew it would be the last time i’d hear your voice lifted up in praise, i would videotape each action and word, so i could play them back day after day.

if i knew it would be the last time, i could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say "i love you", instead of assuming, you would KNOW i do.

if i knew it would be that last time i would be there to share your day, well im sure you’ll have so many more, so i can let just this one to slip away.

for surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for an oversight and we always get a second chance to make everything right.

there will always be another day to say our "i love you’s", and certainly there’s another chance to say our "anything i can do’s?"

but just in case i might be wrong and today is all i get, i’d like to say how much i love you and i hope we never forget,

tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,

and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight..

so if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?

for if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day, that you didn’t take the extra time to smile, a hug or a kiss, you were too buzy to grant someone, what turned out to be their last one wish.

so hold your loved ones close today,whisper in their ear,tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them near

take time to say "im sorry," "please forgive me," "thank you," or "it’s okay."

and if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets today.

here are pictures of the persons i failed to keep because i failed treasuring each day i have with them.now they poofed.

i can’t post "his" picture here.simply bcoz his baby picture(which is all i have) is not accepted.but you know who you are.. im sorry for wasting the days we had.i hope you’re able to read this.