okay, im lovin my life now!!after being so twisted by depressions,im now locked by happiness.
i heard so many times in church that if you gradually continue on keeping the sad breeze inside you, you’ll just have your head down.and keeping yourself down is a sin. but i still kept on agonizing lonesome thoughts until i realized somethin: you can’t please ppl, if you still don’t know how to please yourself.
ehem!i love pleasing ppl!!esp GOD<do i have to xplain?>.
so im living my life now with the fulness of laughter and lots of encouragement. walkin on the aisle with my head up creates a subtle grin on my face.
oh,ive got something to share..well, ive been away<maybe forever away> from the person that made a moment of my freaking life worth living.if you know what i mean. at first, i often cry out to God and trying so hard just to enjoy a day. and everytime i pray for His comfort, i find myself gasping for air as i sob. but God reached out to me and pampered me with His mighty hands. i became busy with life forgetting to have a moment to lie in my green-colored bed just to feel having some fluid stucked on my eyes. i usually see myself interacting with others not limiting myself from making friendships esp with other guys. i could wear what i want<which should also be pleasing to God> and i have a PLENTY of time for me and my family.
the usual calls and texts i recieve from him was cutted off, but i won’t let my loud laugh be cutted also.
i have to admit,we talked for this parting almost a month ago. we made an agreement to not communicate with each other for a month.but i think we should keep doing that thing for like forever.i don’t know.let God’s will be done.
but all i wanted to tell you is don’t let yourself drowning.once you’ve been alarmed for such thing, call out for our Lifesaver.keep on moving your feet. try to extend your arms for those who surrounds you.live for yourself. life’s too short to keep being depressed.
on my experience, i learned a lot of things. there’s too mush for a fourteen yr old like me to overcome.well, i won the race. im glad i did.
”the story can’t continue if you don’t turn the pages."
P.S
as W.S put it:
parting is a sweet sorrow, and i shall say goodnight to let the morrow.
can’t leave this.how confusing it has been. wishing now i didn’t get what i wanted. hoping i didn’t see what i have seen. i know that im not good enough,to fulfill him with such concerns. i really wasn’t that great for anyone, insecurity is what governs. the stares he made quckly fade away,his mystic laugh sounded like a cry.i want to burn myself to death, pain is what blinks in the sky.